Looking Back...
When I was younger, I believed that if I lived my life a certain way, I was guaranteed a certain outcome; if I was good and good to others, striving to demonstrate no signs of selfishness, always reliable and helpful when needed, then I would be rewarded with a happy life. At the almost age of 28, I'm finding that I was mistaken. As I look back on my life, I find that the majority of the choices I've made, those that altered my path and placed me where I am today, were due to making sure my family, friends, and/or community were ok. I sacrificed too many things that I wanted for myself for the sake of others, which has resulted in a loss of my personal happiness. I'll be 28 in less than a month and as my mind replays the majority of the choices I've made, all I can seem to think is that I wish I had been just a little selfish...
posted by Madeehah @ 7:16 PM
5 Comments:
Yea but in the Hereafter, when you are looking down at us from your mansion in Paradise, you'll take that statement back....
Imeen to Sara's comment! And although you may almost be 28, you are still alive and there is still plenty that Allah hasn't yet rewarded you with/for! or maybe he has and you just don't see it yet;)Your time will come! Patient preserverance!
I love that you all are so optomistic about the situation but there are a few things that we have to consider here : 1) Paradise isn't guaranteed to me, and 2) I'm just going on the facts. I'm not saying that I haven't been blessed MANY times over and I am TRULY grateful to Allah (swt) for each and every blessing...all I'm saying is that I believe I would be in a happier place right now, places I would like to be right now, had I thought about myself before I thought about others maybe once or twice...that's all.
Ok, I meant to spell it "optimistic"
OMG! Neesah-we are here (doing the fingers to the eyes thing). What is it once you go past twenty-five you start reflecting a lot more. I completely feel you. You do things for others and you are upset not because you did something for someone else-but because you were not being true to yourself in the process. I completely identify-and I am still working on being a little selfish sometimes-it is important to maintain sanity!
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