A Carrie Bradshaw Moment...
There is a lot going on around me that I have no control over, so when I want to clear my mind or not face the realities of the world, I lock myself in my room for hours with my heater blasting (I love the coziness of heat) and pop something great into the DVD player. This weekend, I revisited the first three seasons of Sex and the City, a show that I fell in love with after being introduced to it by a great friend (THANKS MUNEERA!!). Ok, so I'm up to the point where Carrie is in a relationship with Aiden (a guy who is just perfect for her), yet she continues to want Mr. Big (a guy who constantly shyt on her life).So, this got me thinking about myself and others that I've encountered and makes me ask my own question: What is it about the person who treated you like shyt that is so damn attractive? Isn't that a little sick and twisted? I can only speak for myself here, but I fell victim to that once too...wanting someone who was just wrong for me and to this day I still can't understand why I accepted half the crap I went through with him. In one episode she asks "Do we need drama to make a relationship work?" Answer: HELL NO. I consider myself a wanter of the "drama-free" relationship, or at least as drama free as possible, but I can't help but admit that the one guy I really wanted to be with brought serious, truly unnecessary, energy-draining drama to my life and I failed to cut the cord. I found myself pissed at times constantly wondering what the hell was wrong with me, but the attraction stuck until I just couldn't deal anymore...but this went on for YEARS. Carrie didn't go off on Mr. Big until after six years and get this: they STILL ended up together! I don't know where I'm trying to go with this blog, all I know is that watching this show this weekend made me think of my past and wonder why I was so attracted to my "Mr. Big". And, to be honest, I still don't know the answer to that question.


1 Comments:
All of us have those Mr. Big's in our life that we allow to crap all over us and yet for some magical reason we keep coming back for more. But the key to remember is that in the end, Carrie and Big only decided to TRY a grwnup relationship-not get married or anything. Miranda and Charlotte married their Aiden's and look at how happy they were! your Aiden is out there, but you have to completely get rid of your Mr. big first (AHEM)!
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